Two steps back

Sometimes in this dance of life we take 2 steps backward in order to go forward. Such is what I'm having to do in order to go forward with my blogs. I look at all that my life consists of and I wonder how to connect the dots. What is the pattern? What are the steps to be taken? Where have I been and where am I going? Most importantly, where am I now? What is this dance that I have been doing since January 2011 until now? It is a new dance that I am having to learn.Will I ever learn to do it gracefully or will I continue to be so awkward and unsure as it has seemed to be? Such are the reflective pondering of late.